I'm a 38 NZ lad living in Hamilton city in the Waikato regionyoung in complexion and build ?⚜☯?

Im polite relaxed motivated addaptable compassionate and respect all individualities ethnicities and personas.

I have a very high sex drive due to self aroused thoughts and trauma triggered by the memories of being sexually exploited by a teenage girl when i was six and made on more than one occasion (during her babysitting duties) to perform oral sex and lick her vagina.I remember how her vagina smelled and the little moist gushes as she climaxed all over my little tongue and face....

Curiosity as a child sealed my fetish..I was in afterschool care with a lady whom was responsible for looking after me from 3pm to 6pm when my guardians finished work..The lady was in her late 30s and was a curvy big breasted voluptuous redhead and she had a unique aroma about her..especially when one afternoon she had pulled me up to sit on her lap and through her floural white skirt the aroma seeped out and i felt myself wanting to lay my head closer and closer to her yummy mound of musky womanhood..

A couple weeks go by and im in her care..shes running a bath to have and as she strips of out of her clothes she calls out to me .ordering me to take her dirty dress and pop it in the wash ringer..well curiosity as i picked up her big bloomers and started to sniff the spot where it was damp from being layed against her hairy clitorus and the moistness left behind in the form of a wet white slime substance..i could feel a tingle in my groin but due to only being 9yrs old i wasnt gaining manhood..the smell the wetness of the bloomers..i was a dirty little pervert ?

I was fully immersed sniffing away and for the first time i started to rub my little penis out of share curiosity...just as i had started rubbing my genitalia and the feeling of self touching and maybe getting caught tingles in my groin more....excitedly so I went a step further from sniffing her bloomers to licking them to see if i could tast her like my previous babysitter.. i was building up the courage to lick where her bloomers were moist and dirty from urine drips,and day wear...i excitedly licked her damp musky bloomers ..smelling and rubbing my little penis.. tasting the smegma stains on her bloomers and all the while getting excited from the dirty aroma and filth of what I was doing...lo and behold..i felt a sharp pain in my ear "my carer"as she's pulling me into the bathroom where the bath water was still in and she strips me bare and makes me have a bath making sure I washed my face and hands thoughroughly.....Nothing was mentioned  to my guardians at all.. 

Two days later I'm made to stay the weekend as my guardians were out of the village till Monday.. 

That eve I got up to use the toilet..

I could hear her moaning in her sleep..like she was enjoying something yummy and eating..i had to look so as I tippy toed down the hall to sneak a look if she was ok and just dreaming I got a bigger surprise...

She was laying naked on bed..i could see her fully with no clothes on ...shes laying there moaning excitedly as shes rubbing between her legs and inserting a finger in and out of her vagina..the more I looked the more strange i felt.. like I was being naughty....her petite nipples exposed in the minute light from the hallway..and her voluptuous breasts bouncing as she thrusts her finger in and out of her....her moaning scared me to the point where I wanted to smell her vagina and try lick it to see what it really tastes like..so I went back to bed to wait till she fell asleep ..

She was sound asleep when I crept back into her room to look fully at her naked body and to hopefully have a smell and to molestate her vagina while she slept and to hopefully try lick her to see what it tastes and felt like on my tongue...i was doing ok for about five minutes..id got right in between her legs and was laying there slyly touching her pubic hair..thats when she opened her legs wide apart like she needed to let her mound breath and it gave me cause and determination to get right in close to her vagina and see if i could lick it ..i didn't realize that as I was licking the pubic hair she had become aroused through me touching her in her sleep..so I kept kissing licking tongue prodding and eventually my little fingers where playing and PENETRATING inside her and she allowed me to continue..i was feeding my whole fist and wrist deep into her..i became her play thing to help her masturbate..

So every day after school on more than a few occasions..She would groom and teach me how to orally perform with my tongue and mouth..how to lick where to lick and stimulate the vagina by sensual pleasurable touch...you be the judge of that ..

I am genuinely in pursuit of a particular fetish to be explored by a confident not shy mature lady...Im looking to be your submisubmissive your toy and your slave your fetish your fun your relaxation your enjoyment your friend and intimate kink play for each other's pleasure..

..your maturity and experience is welcomed excitedly.. 

Thank you.